A NOTE FROM THE EAST

I received a note...
I don't know whom it came from
All that was written on it read "From the east side of town"
Cupid hasn't shot anyone for me there

...Or maybe I'm not aware of that yet
I opened it with glee
And found a rose seed
There was nothing more I could do
Nothing else to trace the recipient with

...So I made a decision
And put the seed in the ground
It started pushing through the soil beautifully
But I still didn't know whom it had come from
Maybe love found a new way to come say "hi"
And with the rose, make me smile

...Every now and then, I hope for the one who sent me a rose flower in  this form to show his face
But each day passes by and all I see is a growing red rose which came from the East side of town.

TORTURE

I hold grudges with my heart

Am angry with my mind

I made a hasty decision

And now am paying the price

He has never been "the man"

Because he never owned up to responsibilities

He asked for favors with force

And always wanted things done at his beck and call

Am like a fly in the home

Sometimes going unnoticed for months

I dread sleeping at night

Because it's where the whole "uhms" n "ahs" are made with me tied to the bed

I never had a break from his manly stature

And each time he called from the bedroom, tears begin to roll down my cheeks

I have lived in constant fear of speaking up

Because wen I do, I'd either see a hand cum my way

Or boots greeting me on the floor

I am treated like a nobody

But to the outside world, I had it all

He saw nothing wrong with the whole thing

And actually thought there was more I could do to please him

I want it to come to an end

But letting go is not an option

Because, even through the pains

I've still come to realize that there's nothing as a perfect man...anywhere.

WRITINGS ON THE WALL

I was so caught up in love...

Not for a second did I think I was being manipulated

The little things I did with pleasure seemed numb to me in recent times...

"I can't breathe without you", "I can hardly sleep without you by my side"

All those were lines he rehearsed to make me feel special

Yet I never even felt his presence by my side...

It was me making sacrifices and turning down offers just to please him

The usual cravings of a lady from her man was something I could not even dream of...

Romantic night outs are like taboos, I never get a "yes" to them

"I'm busy, the schedule is tight" is all I hear on a daily basis

Whenever I fix a date, it was still me I would find at the table three hours later...

Make him fix one and you don't show up, it's like you broke one of the ten commandments

I'm tired, I need a break

But I feel so entangled now that I don't even know which way shows the exit...

Nothing has ever been fun and pretending to wear a smile is all I have ever done

I admit I leaped too fast

But don't blame a lady who needed care

And found love at first sight...

My once cherished dream has become a reality so far from me

And it's so hard to believe

I really need the exit

Because it's no longer a blurring sight...

There's just one thing I want him to know, that I loved him in a way no one else would

I made it look perfect, though inside of me was messy

I've lived, loved and learned and I wish he does the same...

I would forever hold a bigger portion of my heart for you

Because I bear no hatred against you, but I pray you learn so fast to appreciate things the way they are...

I love you and would always do, no matter what.

BURNING SILENCE

 It feels like an empty room

Ssshhhhh!

Whatever you say would just echo back to you

Why are we even stuck here without a word

Or is this how you want us to be from now on?

This is just torture

I can’t feel the honey/darling thing anymore

I feel like I’m lonely in this place

Why the silence anyway!

What is it that can’t be shared anymore?

We could make it work

And take a walk out of this trouble

This silence feels so louder than noise

And it keeps burning faster than rage

Maybe I’m not the problem

But your silence towards me feels so unusual

And I never wished we got here at all

If only I knew what this was all about

I would have turned the clock to where it all started

And pause it before we got here

I’m dying with pain inside

I no longer have those cuddles when I sleep

And never get the wake-up smiles anymore

I can neither say a “Hi” nor get one back

And the pet names I always looked forward to are like a mirage these days

If it’s about not me, then why this “speech boycott”

There are more questions than answers

But I really want this “slow poison” to end

Because it’s burning faster than I ever thought it would.

I'M SORRY... I WANT YOU BACK!

Tears roll down my eyes when I see our picture hanging on the wall
What ever happened to "Us"?
I never wanted it to be this way
But we never have a conversation without fights
Make-up times are even the worst...
Either someone calls your phone and you have to walk away
Or I get an urgent text I'd have to reply
And then the flames start again...
It isn't that easy looking back at all the things we did together
And now I sit back in the sofa all alone hoping to hear a knock on the door...
I always imagine you standing behind the door with cakes and sweets in your hand saying "It's weekend again, baby"
How I wish I could erase those memories now
But all I see now is just our smiling picture on the wall
Face-to-face, we always sat in public
And caught the attention of others with our kisses...
Where's the man who bumped into me and smiled?
Why is it so hard to believe you're gone so fast?
And why can't you just make that call to say "I'm sorry" 
I'd always take you back
Because that force inside of me is stronger than the ocean waves...
I'd love to hear from you
If you're indeed not mad at me
I still love you and will always do
...And oh, if I ever did something I'm not even aware of, I'm sorry.
I'm truly sorry...and I could say that a hundred and one times for your sake
Just so you come back home.
Because, I really miss "Us".

PERFECTLY IMPERFECT

Tell me why you never get angry at me

I would like to know what I do so right

That makes you act so perfect 

Have I not got any flaws

Or have you not got any clues?

I keep yelling 

And you keep smiling...

You hardly go crazy about my whining

All I hear you say is "stop crying"

And I sometimes wonder if I'm dreaming

What in the world did I do wrong

To have you by my side all day long?

I'm not so perfect, that I admit

But you still being there makes me even scared...

What if I loose you someday...

...or what if you get tired of all these childish treatments?

Even though I act so crazy sometimes

All I ever wanted is to keep you close to myself...

I hope you still find me adorable in a thousand years to come

Or you better frown at me now 

And let me realize how hurt you are by my actions.

My heart is only growing

And yes, for your love each day.

If you ever find anything wrong about me, tell me now 

Because I know how "perfect" I can be.

LOVE LETTER

I was in bed

And something came into mind

A pen and paper was all I could find

"Hi dear"..."Hey love"

I kept on canceling 

No word seemed to make any meaning

And no sentence actually reached that feeling

I was so eager to send that mail

But all the words I tried had failed

"Lend me your eyes"

I started...

I'm about to pour my greatest secret on paper

"I love you"

I revealed...

It's been so hard to bear

I wish I never let it out...for I'm just a lonely girl wanting to be noticed

If my letter ever gets to you

Please remember I don't need a reply...

...All I'm asking is for you to share a heartbeat with me

Let me know if your heart beats the way mine does.

Maybe I didn't need a pen and paper

And just maybe I shouldn't have written this letter

But to whom it may concern...my love letter is been sent.